Broken trust does not always involve lies or cheating. It is also broken when a person fails us - time and time again. It's broken when a person quits believing in us. It is broken when a person quits seeking us. It is broken when a person obviously honors other people or activities more than they do us. When words become empty, hopes become dashed and promises don't come true, a heart becomes hardened and the ability to trust becomes difficult.
I've been duped one too many times. Why? Because I want so badly to believe! It's easy for me to open my heart and easy for me to love because it is the utmost longing of my soul. I was made for companionship. I can be independent but I don't like it. It is in my nature to seek friendship and comfort with another.
I myself have broken trust before and I have paid dearly for it. I am responsible for the hardening of another person's heart. It was an unhealthy response to my own hardened heart. Mine was broken so I broke another..... and when healing took place, scars replaced a good portion of the soft tissue. That then perpetuated a vicious cycle where two hearts could only continue hardening even more. Why have I lost hope that I could soften again? Because the pain is so bad that I know there is only more scar tissue to come.
I can let this scar tissue build or I can go to the Great Physician - the One who knows how to remove it and massage this solid mass of nothing into something soft and pliable that beats again with a passion it never knew possible. I tried to believe in man - but man let me down. God never fails. God loves me, wants me, pursues me with a desire I'll never see in any man. He knows my greatest needs even better than I do. I trust Him and Him alone to provide - in His timing, in His way and in His method of delivery.
I do not wait for man. I wait upon the Lord. Lisa Whittle echoes my thoughts about trust:
"And though it is hard to trust, it is harder still to live without belief."
When I can't trust man, I can always believe God. His promises are never empty. He is always true.
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