Better?

"It will feel better when it quits hurting."  (a former PCHS football coach) 

I saw this post on Facebook tonight from a fellow alumnus of PCHS.  Sounds like a coach for sure :)  My first question was - does that also apply to divorce?

And then I began to answer my own question.

I don't think I'm hurting anymore.  I'm over the emotional roller coaster aspect of it all.  I no longer cry at the drop of a hat or when the church choir sings.  I can carry on a conversation with the former spouse without feeling bitterness or resentment and without that god awful lump in the pit of my stomach.  I'm beginning to see all the positive aspects of single life and no longer dwelling on what I no longer have.

When I learn something new or do something around the house that I never did before I feel empowered.  When I begin to feel really alone, I've been able to counteract the loneliness with my friends and family.  I've begun to recognize when I try to fill emotional holes with empty things and have learned to go the major Provider of fulfillment - and try to fill with Him.  Not always easy, but at least I know where to go.

So I'm fairly certain that I can say I've quit hurting.  But do I feel better?.....  Do I? 
Maybe?
It comes and goes I guess.  Life has begun to make sense and that was one of my big struggles before.  I have been able to set some really important boundaries that I think will help make me healthier and happier in the long run.  But honestly.....  I'm not to the better part yet.  I've quit hurting, yes but I'm not better yet.  Does that mean that I'm still the same?

I think it just means that I've leveled out.  There's still more to do.  I'm staring better in the face and once I conquer that, then I'll be looking for BEST.  I truly believe the best is yet to come.  I believe I'll see best some day.  But before I do, I have to get better.  The only recipe for that is time mixed with grace.

II Corinthians 12:9And He said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for My strength is made perfect in weakness.