I spend alot of time asking God why. I guess I lean more toward the concept of fate than of random happenings. I do believe God allows certain things to happen for a reason or brings certain people into our lives at very definite times for a purpose..... but not always. Sometimes it is simply by chance that we come across something or someone. Right?
Most of the time we don't know why something happens until much later - sometimes years later. In the early years of dealing with an autoimmune disease, I spent so much time in the "why me" phase. I still don't fully understand why but as I've learned to cope with the disease, I've been able relax and accept what I've been dealt. There have been lots of advances in medicine since the early days and I'm blessed to have found a medication that keeps me in somewhat normal mode. This week, I got a phone call out of the blue from a friend who had been newly diagnosed with a similar disease. I think I was able to give her some good information to help her accept and deal with the plight she now faces. She is not the first. I have been able to talk with several others and this common bond has helped form valuable friendships that might not have formed had I not been through it.
That's just one example of a fate thing.... But what about the random things? Did I think my autoimmune disease was random then and then later decide it was fate? What is happening now that is random and what is happening now that is fate? Does it really even matter? I don't know why I think about this so often. Really - if its fate, it's obviously not for me to know now. God reveals that in His time. I bet God gets tired of me asking why. Maybe I should add that other annoying question we hear often as parents.... "How much longer til we get there?" since I'm obviously on a never ending journey.
Will He ever get me raised? It's not looking too promising.... I'm still not past the terrible twos!
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