BREATHE...

Lyrics from George Straight:
Life’s not the breaths you take
The breathing in and out
That gets you through the day
Ain’t what it’s all about
Ya just might miss the point
Try’n to win the race
Life’s not the breaths you take
But the moments that take your breath away

My daughter is the country music fan in our household so we listen often in the car. And although I'm not necessarily a fan, I do love the stories most country songs tell and the lyrics to most of them are fairly meaningful. Typically I like the female musicians but every once in awhile one of the men will sing something that gets to me and today, the aha moment came from George Straight.

It occurred to me after hearing the lyrics above that my life right now is just a series of breaths I'm taking....one...right after....another. Nothing really is taking my breath away. In fact, when I look back to a time that I felt more together and more content, it was near a time when I was near one of those moments that take your breath away - either right before or right after.

I realize those moments can't be constant. We need times of slow and steady breathing. What I question now is - am I just not seeing the breathless moments or are they really not there? Can I create them somehow? Or is it simply just not time for one? Somehow I feel I'm craving that. But is it a false hope?

Do I go looking for that roller coaster ride or jump off and make a bold career decision? Or do I just wait this all out and focus on the slow and steady breathing that I've been doing all along. Maybe focus more inwardly and even pull out a few practices from yoga - breathing ever MORE slowly and MORE deeply in order to calm this nagging storm inside me.

At this point, I really have no choice. God knows when those moments that take your breath away should be. I guess I will trust Him to provide them when He knows best and in the meantime, try out a little yoga breathing in order to calm my anxiety.