When you're 40 something and single, there are a lot of open windows. Many times when you find yourself in this position, it is because some door has closed so I'm borrowing from the cliche "When God closes a door, He opens a window". Thing is, He doesn't just open A window - He opens ALL THE WINDOWS!
At first, I found myself staring that the closed door, running back to it - trying to open it, picking the lock and even attempting to kick the thing in. I hurt myself doing that - in a big way. I nursed my wounds however and decided to hibernate for awhile. I slept through a few obvious open windows at that time but luckily I didn't miss anything. I realized I needed that time to build up the confidence to start looking at all the windows and picking one to climb out of.
Some of the open windows are beautiful and show a calm sunny day waiting to happen. Other windows are dark but you can see the glistening stars and bright moon through them. Some are cloudy and grey with a storm brewing behind them - but yet they appear so intriguing, you want to chase that storm and smell the rain as it begins to fall. I also notice windows that blow forceful winds into my dwelling - winds that brush my cheek and whisper quiet poems on my heart. And then there are also windows that show a world so big and scary that it makes me want to run back to the old door and kick it some more!
Whatever window grabs me at the moment is certainly worth the consideration and I'm enjoying the views from all of them. However, eventually I will choose one out of which to climb. Am I still afraid? Of course! But I am comforted by the fact, that if I leave my dwelling through a window - that window remains open until I decide to close it. The door may have been closed for me or even by me but it will remain just that. It's just not smart to go back in the same door that closed behind you - especially if you want to go forward in life. Going forward requires some window shopping before the journey and I'm happy for the opportunities to consider all my options - without lamenting over closed doors.
Windows are transparent and clear. I think it's time I enjoyed the view out of each one. The opportunities are endless even if overwhelming at times but I'm thankful they are open - just for me - until I decide when its time to close them.
OK - just feel the need to clarify. These windows are simply options in my life. They pertain my job situation and where I choose to live as well as with whom I choose to spend my time. I've never had so many choices before and sometimes it is overwhelming but it is also intriguing so I felt the need to put those conflicting thoughts in word form to better decide which windows I want to look into keeping open and which ones can be closed.
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