It IS Well......

I remember what it was like to have no more tears left....   to be numb, dull, void of emotion.  I remember what it was like to be bored -what it was like to have absolutely no feeling at all.  I remember feeling lonely even though I had people all around me and feeling like I no longer played a part in my own life.  I remember the feeling of forgotten passion, wasted dreams and forelorn futures.

And I remember wishing....no longing..... for MORE.

OH how life has changed!

I can't exactly call it better......YET.  But it is most certainly different.

I've done more crying in the last year than I have done in all 39 years leading up to it.  I am no longer numb - quite the opposite:  sometimes full of gut wrenching pain but other times full of absolute bliss.  While I may be at my lowest low one day, I see my highest peak the next!  My feelings run the gamut and are like a colorful rainbow after a very dark stormy day.  The emotion is like a beautiful prism that glistens new designs onto the canvas of my soul.

Passion has been awakened, dreams have been revived and future is full of possibility.

There are no more dead end roads but many new and open territories.  Scary?  Perhaps - but also intriguing.

I am free.  Unchained.  Unleashed.  Unglued.  Undone. Untangled. 

But yet.....  broken, still.  And waiting - hoping - knowing that someday all will be fixed.  All will be well.

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.