Weak

My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness ~2 Corinthians 12:9a

Weakness comes in many forms. We have weak bodies, weak minds, moments of weakness, weak attitudes, weak paychecks....and the list goes on. It is generally seen as a negative. Nobody wants to appear weak. We are often told "Be strong" - but really... is that really what we want? I know many fake it. Fake it till you make it. But I think I'm having none of that. I can't fake it any more and I don't want to. I want reality and I want it even if it slaps me around sometimes.

If the above verse is as it reads.... we experience God's power when we are weak. When you think of all the miracles Jesus performed, that kinda backs up the verse. The disciples witnessed God's power, yes but only when they were weak did they experience it. Those who experienced it were the ones who were formerly weak - the blind, the ill, the lame, the poor and the ones like me with personal demons that haunted them. We may not see God's power in front of our eyes today as we did in Bible stories, but it is still alive and well. It is in the gift of His grace. That gift is there - beautifully wrapped and waiting for us to open and receive. We don't really even have to ask, just accept.

Micca Campbell said it well when she said this:
The world's philosophy says what can't be cured must be endured. But actually what can't be cured makes us dependent on the power of God. In that dependency His power is given and we are made strong. I've come to learn this truth myself. God doesn't always remove me from my painful circumstances, but He supports me in them. This strengthens me like none other.

So for now, I choose weakness. I can't fake it anyway and I'd much rather gain strength in God rather than doing it all myself. He wants to carry my burdens for me. I think I will let Him do that until He gives me the strength to bear them myself.