THAT guy!

I am so newly single that I'm sure I really don't get it yet, but part of the process is coming to terms with my new status. Although I'm not ready to date, the freedom is still there so its always in the back of my mind. My feeling is that its best to know what I'm looking for before I put myself out there and I find that I still go back to those unrealistic fairy tale expectations. That in and of itself is a pretty big red flag that I'm definitely not ready. In entertaining that thought however, I keep wishing for that one man that would be willing to move heaven and earth to be with me. Tonight I was feeling rather down because in my heart of hearts I know there is no man that could fulfill that dream.

You know what God said about that? He reminded me that He IS that guy! There truly is no man who can be everything I want. There is no man or woman here on earth that will never let me down. But I have God and He is always here - always ready to hold me - always excited to see me - always available when I need Him - AND He already moves Heaven and Earth...just for ME :) Ok - and you too. That's whats great about Him - He is all that to everyone, not just me and it makes me want to fall in love with Him all the more.

So once again, after a very trying day - full of anger and tears - God pulls me close and comforts me. It's the gentle way he shows me that my focus is wrong and softly turns my head back the direction it needs to go. My goal is not to lean on men, but to lean on Him. My thoughts may keep wandering, but somehow, some way - my father steers me back to the right path. Even when it all seems hopeless, He shows me my hope is in Him. When I finally am able to know this on my own - then He will give me just what I need. Until then, this painstaking process is the only way I can learn that it's actually through dependence that we find freedom. Independence may seem to signify strength but that is only man's view - for it actually creates bondage to self. When we give that up, then we find the peace we were yearning for.

As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Joshua 1:5