Matthew 6:21

"Whatever we treasure the most controls us, whether we admit it or not"
or another version:
"For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also"

Matthew 6 speaks of 2 of the greatest temptations we face as Christians. 1 - the temptaton to seek to be noticed as religious people of God in order to gain the approval of men. 2 - seeking the treasures of this earth.
The question is where is my heart really? Is it seeking self or is it seeking a real relationship with God? The fact that I call myself a control freak, pretty much sums it up. If I am in control, my treasure seeking is all about ME.

And I am reminded of a favorite hymn:
Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

If God is my vision - my best thought - sooner or later He will also be my treasure.

I know where my heart is and I know of the treasure there. The motive is pure but but perhaps the emotion is untrue? It is a distraction and prohibits me seeing the real treasure Christ has in store for me. It's hard not to look past the gem I see here on earth but I have to know that there is more that God wants for me, from me. It is currently blinding me but I realized today that by having this distraction, God is asking me to relinquish control and let Him lead me. If my vision is askew, there is no other option.

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.