The Best

It occurred to me today that I have discovered what seasoned writers, artists and musicians have known for centuries.  Intense emotion inspires creativity.  For some, happiness is their greatest muse and others are spurred by sad events in their lives. Even anger can bring forth passionate works of art!  And although I don't consider my blogging an art form, I do notice that in my more emotional moments, my writing becomes more creative in nature - sometimes almost poetic and other times more rhythmic depending on what I'm going through.  Lately, however - I want to be poetic and I'm not - heck - I just want to have words to write and I just can't find them.  As for the emotion - it's there.  It's there like its never been before, with an intensity that I've never felt and yet I'm unable to express it.  Weird.

I wonder if perhaps I have used words to comfort myself in the past and no longer need that comfort?

Was that a control issue?  Was it a means of searching?

When I was unhappy I needed those words to be able to describe where I was and where I wanted to be.  Now that I am happy, I have no need for words.  I am just happy.  How many ways do you need to describe that?  Seriously, my worries are few and of the few, they are so trivial they are not worth mentioning.  At one time, my ability to be content was questioned.  Well looky here - I think I found the mysterious place of contentment.  Weird.

And yet at times I still question how I got here.  There is only one way.  Why question it?  When I look to God for guidance and learn to be in His presence, He provides.  It's as simple as that.  When I try to do it myself, life begins to suck.  It's all about trust and relationship.  I am inadequate but HE is everything!

He loves us so much.  He wants to give us His best. God's best is better than you can imagine - take it from me, I know.  It may have taken me half a lifetime to figure it out, but I'm glad I finally did.  The future has never looked so bright.  As Robert Browning said, "The best is yet to be!"

Psalm 71:20
Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again;
from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up.