Peaceful Anticipation

So yeah.....  apparently this is my place for emotional purging and it appears that I must be a recovering bulemic blogger because it's been a long time since I have felt the need to write.  Is that a good thing?  Perhaps.....

On the one hand, it is incredibly refreshing to be off the roller coaster of despair and excitement.  It is nice to just coast for awhile on the straight and narrow.   Yet on the other,  I fear that the lack of expression could cause my creativity to decline and that is an important aspect of my personality.  Perhaps I am learning to express myself in new ways.

What I am beginning to see is the end of a chapter in my life - closing in on the final pages.  It is bittersweet as several doors have closed but new, beautiful windows are beginning to open.  The change is welcome but still brings about some quiet apprehension mixed with anxious excitement. It is very difficult for me to prohibit myself from skipping to the last page and rush the ending.  I know that I need to savor every precious morsel of new beginning that I can, but it requires restraint not to head straight for the dessert.

If I could only explain how incredibly blessed I feel !!!!  I spent so many months feeling dejected and alone but seeking all the ways God loves me.  I found them finally and then He blessed me even more!  Funny how He works that way.  Just when you realize how good you have it, it gets even better.  I'm going to do my best not to grumble any more about the little things and look for good in every situation - even those very dark days because those are the times we are shaped and molded into His likeness to become the hope that so many seek. 

However - in spite of the peace and calm I am feeling now, a girl just tends to worry a bit and this is what came across my desk this morning.  Two points of scripture that show again just how much God loves us:

5 Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he's the one who will keep you on track. Don't assume that you know it all. Run to God! Run from evil! Your body will glow with health, your very bones will vibrate with life! Honor God with everything you own; give him the first and the best. Your barns will burst, your wine vats will brim over. But don't, dear friend, resent God's discipline; don't sulk under his loving correction. It's the child he loves that god corrects; a father's delight is behind all this.6 Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he's the one who will keep you on track.   (Proverbs 3:5-6)

Philippians 4:7

7 Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.