Who Am I?

”Do you want to stand out? Then step down. Be a servant. If you puff yourself up, you’ll get the wind knocked out of you. But if you’re content to simply be yourself, your life will count for plenty” (MSG). Matt 23:11-12

I guess for this verse to apply - I have to know who I am first.  I am getting to know her again and for the first time maybe ever, this life is becoming all about me.  But is it?  really?

What I am discovering is that in all my years of serving others I did neglect myself but now that I can really put myself first, I find that I really don't want to.  I'm finding that the only real way to find myself is to continue in service.  The mark I missed is that I was serving only in my little world and not branching out.  I became invisible.

Even though I battle shyness and introversion, I long to stand out.  It's uncomfortable for me to be the center of attention but I want to be the example.  Not because I'm great - but because Christ is great through me.

I believe He is revealing who Amy really is to me one day at a time right now.  I believe all this mess I've gone through the last year has a purpose in my life.  I believe that He is giving me the freedom to be who I am - but not who I am based on ME - but who I am with HIM.

The verse above warns us - if we puff ourselves up, we will get the wind knocked out of us and this is exactly what happened to me last year.  I tried to make my life all about me, I went on a journey to find myself but I forgot one simple thing : Christ.   Now that I have turned around and picked Him back up, He is my co-pilot and has become the wind beneath my wings.  He hasn't yet revealed to me where I am going but He is showing my daily who I am.

I am HIS.