Depleted with Joy.

I think I've reached a new low..  I'm actually thankful for this!  Because of it I have been able to adopt a happy go lucky, no care in the world kind of attitude.  I have truly let go!  And it's invigorating.

I am away for work for several weeks and in my happy place - my home: the place where I grew up and the place I feel where I ultimately belong.  I am doing the things that make me happy.  I am tightly scheduled but with things I enjoy and with people I love.  The last two weeks have been very good for me!  It is really nice to be able to consider no one else but me for a change.

The only drawback is being away from the kiddos.  But I have decided that when I return to them, I will be a much better mom.  I will have learned so much about myself and be so at ease with my circumstances that I will be able to fully engage with them.

This is what joy is.  The ability to rest in God in spite of circumstances that leave you emotionally depleted and know that He's got this.  He's carrying me right now.  He loves me. AND I'm getting His best!