What am I doing?

Spinning my wheels? Twiddling my thumbs? Going through the motions? I'm very frustrated with ME. I gave up Facebook for Lent so I could F.O.C.U.S. On God. On Family. On the things that are important! Also so that I would quit looking outside my box for a bit and realize just how great I've got it - all right here. I am the world's worst at comparison shopping (well ok, in a literal sense, I'm very good at it) but in a spirtual sense that is a HUGE flaw. Life is not about comparison. It's not about keeping up with the Joneses. AND - the grass is actually almost NEVER greener on the other side - that's an optical illusion!

I want to quit wanting. I'm good. I have everything I need...MORE than I need and I'm beyond blessed. But apparently eliminating Facebook has not elimated my bad habits. Instead, I feel out of touch with my peeps! But then - perhaps that is temptation talking.... Maybe it's doing more good than I know. Probably more effective would be eliminating internet altogether for awhile and along with that TV. But yeah..... I don't see that happening anytime soon. What pitiful creatures we are that we think we need all this meaningless technology!

So hopefully I'm reeling it in here. Back to the meaning of Lent.....preparation. consideration. What God gave for us ---it's so very humbling when you stop and think about it. Although I tend to make this world about me, it's really not. Or should not be. I hope to stop the vanity and selfishness and realize that I've been given so much already.... was given soooo much more when Christ died for me and perhaps it's time for me to give back. Baby steps though. I'm still not an adult Christian and wonder if I will ever be but the only way I'll get there is to try walking...do a little falling....get back up and give it another go. Somehow this theme is recurring but maybe, just maybe I'll get the hang of it. And perhaps someday after I do, I can work on dancing..... (Queue the music - I hope you dance by Lee Ann Womack) Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance - I hope you dance.