Women's Intuition

I have always been in touch with my intuitive notions and rarely ignore them but many times I simply shrug them off with a wait and see attitude. I rarely 'go with my gut' because I tend to doubt that these feelings are valid. And often - when I do 'go with my gut', I doubt the action I've taken, 2nd guess myself and otherwise put myself through misery.

However, sometimes my intuitions are validated. More often than not, I'm dead on accurate. Of course, I'm no prophet but alot of the time my feelings are more than just feelings.... Thing is, I never know whether it's just a feeling or something more. It really gets complicated when my desires conflict. Sometimes it's more hope than true revelation. Sometimes the revelation also turns into desire. It's just something really difficult to trust.

So I'm frustrated right now because I feel like God is trying to tell me something and I'm not getting it. Maybe because I'm confusing hope with reality, maybe because life is too complicated right now, or maybe just because I don't want to listen. Interestingly enough, He has confirmed a few of my suppositions lately so I know I just need to have faith that He will work it all out in His timing - just like He always does. He knows what's best for me and for all of us. For once, perhaps I should sit back and not try to manipulate my life? His will happens whether I like it or not, whether I sense it or not. Too often I just want to skip to the end of the chapter and not experience the details.....

Do you ever sit back and wonder why things happen the way they do? Why certain people come into your life. Why you end up involved in this situation or another. Are those wasteful thoughts? Because - it really doesn't matter, does it? Our lives are the way they are. Maybe there is a reason and maybe not. Thing is, I can't get past the feeling that there is a reason for everything (and that's my gut talking). The confusion lies in whether I should try to figure out the reason or just let myself happen upon it.